Here we go again...

I'm pregnant.

I was trying charting my cycles with FAM, but I'm still majorly breastfeeding my one year old and things weren't that cut and dry. Needless to say... this baby was a huge surprise. When I first found out, I just sat on the couch and stared into space for about an hour. This is my first unplanned pregnancy. It's so bizarre to not have that two week wait before you can take a pregnancy test. To just... have a late period. And tada! You're pregnant. Weird.

Anyway... so I had taken my kids to a local amusement park for the morning. We had a great time-- we rode the train several times, and my almost 3 year old rode all the kiddie rides he could ever want to ride. We had a great morning. On the way home, I stopped at Dollar Tree to pick up some items for my daughter's first birthday party. While I was there, I picked up a couple of cheap pregnancy tests. I was almost positive that they would be negative, but I was frustrated that I hadn't gotten my period yet, and I certainly didn't want to get it at work that weekend. Better just rule this out.

Got home... and a few minutes later I'm staring at two pink lines. DARK pink lines. There was no mistaking it. I kind of just laughed in disbelief. Like... what? I told my almost three year old: "well, sweetie, Mommy is going to have another baby." "Uh, huh. That's nice. Can I watch a show now?"

When my husband got home, I sat down with him and flipped through some pictures on our camera of our day at the amusement park. At the end, there was a picture of the pregnancy test. "Are you trying to tell me something?"

"Yes.... surprise!"

For someone who really didn't want to have anymore kids, he's pretty happy about it. He's been very supportive of his TIRED and nauseous wife.

So... I'm about 7 weeks. Baby will be here sometime in February. We announced the pregnancy at my daughter's birthday party when one of her presents from us was a handmade "big sister" t-shirt.

We met with this fabulous homebirth midwife last week and we really love her. She seems fantastic. She's a CNM and CPM (to honor multiple ways of knowing) and really believes in individualized care with informed consent/right to refuse treatment. That's perfect for me. I'm a young and healthy multip, but I do have that pesky scar on my uterus. :/ Stupid c-section. I'm very very excited about working with her!