Tuesday, September 25, 2012

15 weeks!

Well... we made it out of the dreaded first trimester!  WOOHOO!!!!  And baby seems very happy and content to continue gestating in my womb.  :)

I started to feel little tiny flutters... at ELEVEN WEEKS.  Crazy.  I am pretty sure that my placenta is posterior this time (based on that first ultrasound) which may explain why movement is more noticeable.  (I had anterior placentas with the other two kiddos).  The flutters were very tiny and sporadic, but now, at 15 weeks, they are much more noticeable.  What a tremendous relief to feel!  I am in heaven!  :)

I am also definitely showing.  To the point where strangers mention the baby belly.  People are already starting to rub my stomach, too.  I am in maternity clothes and have been for weeks.

I am very grateful for the opportunity to grow another healthy baby.  I can't tell you how devastated I was to think that I was ending my fertility with two back to back losses.  It was heartbreaking.  This joy-filled pregnancy has definitely been a huge comfort to me.  I still think of my miscarried babies, but the grief is no longer the focal point of my thinking-- now, it just plays in the background as part of my life story.  It is something that has changed me and shaped me.  I hope for the better.

Here is a sweet little video of  my three children: